letters to sarah

this post is a lil backdated

2009-04-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

dear sarah

the other day mama was 'cleaning' the chicken. suddenly you come into the kitchen -pakai pampers je xde baju seluar- and with both hands+jengket trying to twist dapur tu. you said "shak shak" (masak..masak).

mama: sarahh..xnak2..

sarah then take the cooking oil...and pretending to pour it onto the dapur and says "syhhh...syhhh" (bunyi macam tumis bawang).

mama: saraah..letak balik

ok so mama cldnt take the pic as a proof since mama's hand was dirty with ayam. so mama draw this instead. enjoy :D

xoxo

mom

misteri nusantara

2009-04-10T12:28:00.002+08:00

testing snow cap?

whatt?? GLOVE??

little eskimo

le pasporte

kemanakah sarah mahu pegi?

tag 1

2009-03-27T14:55:00.002+08:00

dear sarah

1st time doing the tags...from k.misah

Rules:
1. Admit one thing you feel awful about (involving being a mom). Once you have written it down, you are no longer allowed to feel bad. Remember you are a good mom!
-of always wanting to travel/outstation and often not considering sarah to be left behind. selfish kah?

2. List 7 things you love about your kids, you love doing with your kids, or that your kids love about you.i love...

-chomellss
-very clever
-baring2 ngn sarah
-kasi chance beliau jadi superrr manja+mengada2!
-dress her up..up..
-splurge on her 'things'
-when she dance and sing along
-when she always calls mamma mamma and papa papa when actually she has nothing to say
(eh eh terlebih sudah)

3. Send this to 5 other moms of the year that deserve a reminder that they too are the best moms that they can be. Remember to send them a note letting them know you have selected them, and also add a link to your post that directs people back to the person who nominated you.
ok
1-k.hanis
2-k.anfal (tp k.misah dah suruh buat)
3-k.dz
4-afrah
5-ok fine. yg lain is mom2b.

ok. tag from aunty ira is next!

animal farm

2009-03-27T13:01:00.004+08:00

dear sarah

to date, your 'haiwan peliharaan' totals up to 13 animals. the above pix only shows 11 animals. the other 2 mama forgot to include and by the time mama remembers/found them, you dont want to take picture anymore.

thats the 'camel' that you always feed your bottled milk with.

now when you saw birds up in the sky, you will say "bird..bird"

when mama says cat..you respond by "nyauu..nyauu.." "tsk ..tsk.."

mama says dog...you respond "woff woff.."

mama says ayam..you respond "aoukk..aoukk"

mama says bird..you respon "cip cip.." (ok fine. ni mama yg ajar..somebody says thats not how bird sounds..)

mama says tiger..you respond "aumm.."

mama says cicak...you: look up the ceiling and says..."tsk..tsk.."

mama says elephant..you put your hand at your face and pretend that to be belalai.

ok ok ok. enough of zoos.

xoxo

mama

continued..oh oh

2009-03-25T08:26:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

hahaha. the other day, mama stepped on one plastic spoon (ala sudu plastik yg buat mkn taufufah tu) . you found the broken spoon and says "mama..mama...tcahhh tcahh"

we have this down pillow (?) wch stuffed with feather. now, the feather starts to come out. the container has leaked. everytime you found the feather..you sill say "eeeeeeeee...eeeeeee" while pointing to the feather. mama will say "sarah..g buang dalam tong sampah"..you will continue to say "eeeee..eeee" then picks up the feather and throw it in the dustbin.

see..mama teach you to speak malay ok. xde english2. x perasan omputeh. sedar diri. bahasa ibunda. mother tongue. HAHA

while mama bathe you -after creating very-very nice-n-inviting env in the toilet, then you were soo happy bathing (that you dont wanna come out -_-!) then you splash2 the water around. then mama's trousers will get wet and you exclaimed "shahhh..shahh". and continue to splash summore water to wet mama's trousers. dus!

oh ya...you now knows how to wear trousers on your own. eventho sebelah kaki je masuk. but ok what..hu hu hu.

of playing dolls/bears/stuffed animals. you ate pear. then after getting all the juice, you luek the 'sampahsarap'. suddenly, instead as leaving it for mama to pick it up - as usual, YOU pick it up..and stuffed to your teddybear's mouth. HUHUHU. abess kotor.. cambiase ah..mama scream..sarahhh!!..(-_-!!)

next is using leftover bottled milk (yours) to make the 'camel' drinks it. you say "nom..nom..(minum..minum) while spilling the milk all over the 'camel's' mouth. aiyohh..

ok fine fine. wch makes mama remembers clearly this one doll while mama was young, theres a food on the spoon. everytime you want to feed the doll, the food will automatically being sucked into the spoon (thats the tactic la basically). but it will look like as though the doll eats the food. nice huh! not sure if that kind of toys is available now in malaysia considering the event took place some...13 yrs back?

xoxoxo
mom

oh oh

2009-03-18T16:21:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

eh eh. dah lama tak update.

as of now, you are so cleaver, so garang, so adorable and sooo cuteee.

they say:
yesterday, the sun wrote, children with younger father/mother tends to be more clever. perhhh
the other day, the sun wrote, children who lives in urban has more vocabs in wch will be smarter in school. perhhh
-ok so the reference is the sun. but ok what. at least the article was published in paper.

o yeah you fall in both categories. oh oh. and mama thinks (perasan) you are very rich in words. you actually understands what mama was saying. i mean..even while mama speaks on the phone about you (read: 'openly ngumpat'), you can understand and respond. HAHA.

if you spill the water on the floor..you will say "mamma..pahhh"
mama says: sarah, buang ni. surprisingly, you pick the thing up and throw it in the dustbin.
mama picks your spilled rice after dinner and put it to mama's left hand. then mama went to the kitchen to throw it away, just to come back and find out that you did exactly what mama did just now. picking up the rice each and everyone of them. huhu
you can differentiate mama n papa's things/accessories. when mama fold the cloth, you will point at layers of folded clothes and say "mamma..mamma..papa..papa" to each mama's n papa's cloth. correctly.
oh and you can count. although the numbering is a little jumble up. one, two, tyee, fi (five), nine, TEN!. hehe.
you HIDE mama's handphone and KNOW and REMEMBER where you hide it! a few times you hide mama's handphone. then mama will frantically search for it before turning to you for help. mama says: sarah, mana handphone mama? you will say: "mamma..mamma.." whilst terkedek-kedek pretending to search for it (at least thats what mama thinks the first time you do it). but out of nowhere, there you are holding mama's handphone. ok so nowhere means somewhere in your hiding place. be it deepdown in your play-box. or you put it under the blue chair, or in the kitchen under the cabinet. mak ai. after a few times, mama will just refer to you for any missing things. hu hu
another amazing thing that mama JUST discovered on monday, is that you know your way/directions. perhhh. very good but indeed very 'dangerous'. because you KNOW the toy-store and mama could not (no matter how many times/tactics) take you away / distract you from the shop. perhhh..
there is one incident that we (mama-you-papa) walk berangkai-rangkai (macam raptai) with you in the middle when suddenly you release our grip and walk straight to...TOYCITY(!!) (-_-!)
and now you are so garang that you scolded papa when papa changed the tv channel from your CD. "papa..papa..babbab..(sambil babap) babbab". eh eh anak dara garang ni.

eh eh dah banyak tulis. more to write. but will need more time. till then.

babbap,
xoxo-mama

creativity

2009-02-25T10:01:00.002+08:00

dear sarah

being a mother is all about being creative.

gotta be creative of how to umpan you to take your bath.

needs creativity to change your diapers

and a different tactic to keep you quiet while mama wears you the diaper.

need to be creative in oredr to create an inviting environment in the toilet.

and another trick to transform the inviting environment in the toilet to be unwanted env.

whilst creating another attractive environment outside to get you out from bath tub.

creativity to make you wash your mouth after eating

another brainstorming on how to change your dirty cloth to a clean shirt

of finding ways to make you eat medicine or something bitter but good for you

harus tangkas dan cekap to sapu hingus

or to wash away tahi mata

creativity also needs patience to cut your finger nails while you are deeply asleep

being mini-gymnast to twist mama's body tailored to the position of hands

and to twist so slightly-ever your hands in order to get the best position to cut your nails without disturbing your sleep

how to innovatively talks you to wear trousers/shirts. otherwise you like to 'berlengging' around. huhu

yet, being a daughter at a young age also needs creativity

how hard to scream to get something

how to 'baring2' at the pathway of shopping mall to go to toys shop/place

how to cry very hard imidiately when seeing a syringe. or medicine bottle

how to strugle to get free from mama's hold-either to bring you to toilet, or to take you away from bath tub etc etc etc

hmm...mama is likely to be more creative..and also innovative. he he he

well...thats wht the oldies says about 'makan garam'

xoxo,

mom

short-short-short

2009-02-25T09:19:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

-a few of mama's friends tagged us. we'll do in the coming posts-

so many things happened within these un-updated month
as usual, 3 days hols didnt really feels like 3 days. instead. its like 1 day?(exegerate). so we have 2x of 3days straight hols. yet, hmm...its like..only 1 day that we really in a holiday.

of the weekends, we have prog. there is this programme where mama brings you together. but mama left you to aunty anfal's bibik. at first, you were very friendly. u nodded when mama says that you will stay here until mama picks you up.
of about one hour, aunty anfal come to mama asking to pick you up. because you were screaming+crying (as usual) for mama. he he he. so we went back and pick you up tp the prog. oh dear...with you, mama couldnt afford to go back in the prog.
1-because mama was afraid to disturb other aunty's concentration
2-well..because you didnt want to. you didnt even want to go near the door od the room. hu hu hu. so we played outside with stray cats instead.
ok fine. so that afternoon we wait for uncle K to pick us up and home we went.

anyways...that night we attended palestine programme at armcorp (or where? mall something).

oh papa wasnt around at that time btw..

then another wekend we went to another prog. u 'mandi sungai!'. "juuk" "juuk" you said. "air..air". at first you were scared to go into the water, but that is only after a while. then you dont wanna come out from the sungai. and mama gotta pull you out. as usual..with cries and scream and struggling. hu hu hu.

at that very weekend..a few deaths occur. first is mama's friend's mom i.e. aunty Dalila. second is your nyang-nyai i.e. papa+mama's nyai. it was very sad. we actually rushed back and didnt make it to aunty Dalila's. we prayed that both soul reside in peace and Allah bless. they have meet the Creator. how about us?

your nina was in Egypt at that time.
that very evening, your temp runs high. so we gotta get back to kl that very evening and went straight to clinic.

what a tragic weekend.

theres another weekend that mama gotta atend early in the morning. so mama just pick you up without waking you up or in other words...mama didnt bathe you. x sempat!
as we arrive at the programme, u woke up and played around for sometime before mama attend you. as usual, you didnt want mama to change your diapers. and didnt want to take your bath. OMG. as usual, scream+cries+struggle. mama distract (umpan) you with choc. and while you were distracted, mama did all-in-once. hu hu hu

ok mama gotta start working. its late. mama will write summore. about you. about how you behave at nursery. hehehe.

love, mom

little heart

2009-02-25T08:08:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

it has been loong since mama wrote to you. so how do you find it?

that is how your heart's feeling when letters to them are not read everyday. and who do you think wrote letters to your heart? who do you think whispers to your little heart?

of course the one who cares about your heart is the one who gv it a beat. the one who created it in the first place. and its the same one who created mama's and others. its the one who link our hearts together.

remember this, the one who cares most about something ofcourse is the one who created and owned it. thats why a mother is the one who loves her children most. because in her opinion, the child resides in her womb for at least 7 months before being borne. all the while she interacts and cares for the baby. and that happens for as long as the baby lives.

imagine how would the Creator feels towards His creation, whom He creates from the very first place. it is He who determines everything, from the color of skin, the color of the eyes, the gender and everything. He would be the one who cares MOST about you. He took care of everything. from the unseen to the seen.

if you love your mother, you need to remember to love her and your Creator. because the Creator is the one who loves you most. who will always be there especially in a very bad situation. who will always whisper to your soul and take care of your heart. who worte letters loong ago before your mother even exists. it is just the matter of YOU READING and UNDERSTANDING the letter. the letter comes in stage. verses by verses. beautifully written. compiled to be a holy book; called the Quran.

the letter from your Creator, telling you about the history-of what happens to those disobey. telling you about the present and the future. it tells about the future where noone else have knowledge about. the mystery lies if you read it line by line..and appriciate it, you will feel as though the Creater is speaking to you directly. as if He is watching your every move - of wch...He really is and responded to you in some way.

so dear Sarah...if you miss mama's letter, pity your heart that the heart misses its creator's letter more than you do.

one day, maybe you will read all mama's post. and maybe you will not and just ignore. but mama's letter are always there and waiting for you to read. mama will be very happy if you spend sometime to ponder upon what mama had written. mama hope that you will learn a lot from mama's letter and follow mama's dos and donts. if you love mama, maybe you will read and ponder. maybe if you miss mama when mama was not in this world anymore, you will read line by line and cries. maybe you will not. maybe you will spread the words around.

the mechanism is exactly the same with the Creator. if you love the Creator much, you will read His letter and ponder upon it. if you missed Him, you will read everyday and line by line. you will even spread the world around. the Creator will always hoping for you to readh His 'letter'. and the letter will always be there for you and for others. the difference is that mama dies, but He dont. He will take care of you until forever. you need to take care of yourself by 'taking care' of Him.

remember this dear. Allah loves you very-very much. love Him back! show the love and spread it.

*barney song-i love you :)

xoxo,

mama

shoes

2009-01-29T13:17:00.004+08:00

dear sarah

lets talk about your 5(!) shoes.

haha you are not even 2 years old, yet your total shoes outnumbered your age. hmm..

1st shoes: koyak. mama guess ur feet are really growing

2nd shoes: (maklang bought for you-pink) you lose one pair while mama was doing grocery and u were sitting in the trolley

3rd shoes: the white one with butterflies on it. hmm mayb mama will publish the pix later (as in later-laterr). still there. but was designed only for kenduris, beautiful events :P

4th shoes: (neklang bought for you-blue-belang-white) still there. but the sole is missing and you keep on slipping while walking that mama decide to buy you a new shoe.

5th shoes: mama bought at alamanda the other day. rm10 only!. best. and cute.

aaa really..whose fault is it that by this age you have so many shoes? size 5 ok. size 5. maybe when your feet grows again, u'll make it to size 6 and mark your 6th shoes. hu hu hu

lets not forget our brothers and sisters in palestine whom may not have shoes at all. let alone new shoes. dear sarah, let us be thankful for everything that we got. for we may see their hardship as a test for them, but we may overlooked that our wealth and health are designed to be a test for us.

xxoo, mom

homework

2009-01-29T13:11:00.004+08:00

wah2...sarah already have a homework!

hihu

xoxo, mom

backdated

2009-01-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

dear sarah

there is this lady of urs; she loves you. she's tidy and neat. she cooks well. she's business minded. she sleeps loong hours (ahax~)

sometimes she took care of you while mama is at work. she bathe you and scolded you for not wanting to wear diapers. then u will 'pretend' to cry. but that tactic doesnt work for her.

she plays with you. she feds you. she took you to ur great gma's house.

she lets u play with her teddies. she lets us sleeps in her big room. eventhough she bebels a lot, she still lets you mess in her tidy and neat room.

sarah says: who is this lady mama? i want to know

(sarah at 9 mos)

she is nice. likes to watch cerekarama. likes to work with her laptop on her bed while leaving her tv on. haa..

this lady of yours-holding you while u were still very-baby, with pink color look alike is your maklang~~!!!

peewittt!!this maklang of yours; and a very sister of mama

HAPPY ~~belated~~ BIRTHDAY!!!
she likes blueee

p/s:

maklang,

pleasee make me some lasagna..pleaseee

truly sarah

XOXO, mom

event(s)

2009-01-19T13:33:00.004+08:00

dear sarah

there was this day when we went to programme together. aunty wardah brings her twin baby. soo chubby. soo adorable. soo cute. mama couldnt help but to 'dokong' one of the twins. it so happen that you saw mama..with the baby i.e. mus'ab. then u came to mama half screaming mama..mama..mama repeatedly.
when u reached us, u try very hard to pick on mus'ab, cubit, bit his pipi etc etc. in other words, you are tryg your best to take him away from mama ( or is it the other way around?).
jelous? haha

then mus'ab starts crying-as a result from ur 'efforts' to separate him and mama-then you started to use ur 'weapon' i.e. crying and nagging. both of you cries!

mak ai...havoc sebentar

haih. mama gotta let mus'ab go to his mama i.e. aunty wardah because everybody is looking at the mess we created. hu hu hu

lesson: if mama wants to hold another baby esp mus'ab, dont do it in front of you. otherwise...:)

******

there was this sunday. mama n papa was having an afternoon nap :)). but you were verymuch awake. mama ws on the other hand, was very-very sleepy (as usual). mama lets u play on ur own. and dreamt off to lala land. suddently like an alarm clock ringing in mama's head:
mamma...mamma..mamma..mamma...mamma...continuously without stop. mama wakes up. just to find that while you are playing on your own, you are chanting "mamma..mamma" tp wake mama up.
you succeeded. hu hu hu.

lesson: mama wakes up at the sounds of alarm clock-or something simmilar i.e. repeatitive and continuous

*****

one night while papa went to usrah, mama pretended to sleep to put you to sleep. you look at mama and chant again "mamma..mamma..mamma...mamma.." to wake mama up. mama continues to 'sleep'. pretending to be fastt asleep. you withoutfail..continue chanting mamma..mamma..

this time that chant wont work..finally

paapp! "ADDOIII!!. you BITE mama's nose! huwaaa

hah terus bangun!

lesson: different tactic, different outcome. hu hu hu

******

to everyone:
"salam maal hijrah 1430 and happy new year 2009"

its kinda late. but we dont have the heart to wish HAPPY new year while our brothers n sisters are at war in palestine.

papa will be outstation from today till thurs. then on fri we got demo! yeah lets go together.

p/s: mama is trying to upload many pix but unsuccesfull. hmm..

we will not go down

2009-01-14T15:04:00.004+08:00

now sarah,
ppl starts to convert their feelings for our brothers n sisters in gaza in many ways. including dedicating/composing songs. here is one:

WE WILL NOT GO DOWN (Song for Gaza)
(Composed by Michael Heart)
Copyright 2009

A blinding flash of white light
Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight
People running for cover
Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes
With ravaging fiery flames
And nothing remains
Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike
Murdered and massacred night after night
While the so-called leaders of countries afar
Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain
And the bombs fell down like acid rain
But through the tears and the blood and the pain
You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down
In the night, without a fight
You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools
But our spirit will never die
We will not go down
In Gaza tonight

All Music and Content Copyrighted. All rights reserved. © 2009

ppl compose many things in their capacity for gaza. they embrace them in their heart and dua. they include them in their thoughts and daily lives.
many our brothers and sisters may not still be living physically in this world. but they are alive in our hearts. they are young and free. ever green

always love, mama

no tears-anymore

2009-01-12T11:59:00.002+08:00

"Birruh biddam nafdika ya Felestin" -
"Dengan jiwa, dengan darah, kami siap berjuang untukmu Palestin"

"Khaibar-khaibar ya Yahud, jaisyu Muhammad saufa ya'ud" -
Ingatlah Perang Khaibar wahai orang Yahudi, tentera Muhammad akan kembali!

of the war, in between the lines;
-the whole world is watching with their eyes the real yahudi-israelis; unmasked. all this while, its just emails, articles etc etc. now ppl are watching it live on their teli
-muslims all around the world somehow united-regardless race/political parties to go against laknatullah israelis
-ppl now starting to really boycott the us products

-logically, with high-tech weapon, detailed plan, demon power, every luxury in the world at ur feet; u shldve wipe out the whole palestinan within a few days. surprisingly (masha allah), they only managed to get the civillians only with little damage done to the mujahideens.
it back fires them when the world is seeing what they really did to the palestinan
-they just cant afford to loose. yet, they are going to loose. never in an islamic history total manpower determines the winning party. its the unseen 'help' from the above that concluded a war

takbirrr!!

sarah,

strengthen ur heart/iman with tahajjud
keep ur heart close to Allah in time of good and bad

included here syeikh ahmad yasin's beautiful speech. very touching. very inspiring. indeed:

***
"Tidakkah kalian lihat wahai bangsa Arab, sudah sampai ke tahap mana keadaan ini ?

Sesungguhnya aku, seorang tua yang lemah , tidak mampu memegang pena dan menyandang senjata dengan tanganku yang sudah mati(lumpuh) . Aku bukan seorang penceramah yang lantang yang mampu menggegarkan semua tempat dengan suaraku yang perlahan ini!

Aku tidak mampu untuk kemana-mana tempat untuk memenuhi hajatku kecuali jika mereka menggerakkan kerusi rodaku. Aku yang sudah beruban putih dan berada di penghujung usia. Aku yang diserang pelbagai penyakit dan ditimpa bermacam-macam penderitaan.

Adakah segala macam penyakit dan kecacatan yang tertimpa ke atasku turut menimpa bangsa Arab hingga menjadikan mereka begitu lemah. Adakah kalian semua begitu wahai Arab, kalian diam membisu dan lemah, ataukah kalian telah mati binasa!

Adakah hati kalian tidak bergelora melihat kekejaman yang berlaku terhadap kami sehingga tiada satu kaum pun bangkit menyatakan kemarahan kerana Allah. Tiada satu kaum pun yang bangkit menentang musuh-musuh Allah yang telah mengistiharkan perang antarabangsa ke atas kami dan menukarkan kami daripada golongan mulia yang di aniaya dan dizalimi kepada pembunuh dan penjenayah serta pengganas ?

Tidak malukah umat ini terhadap dirinya yang dihina sedangkan padanya ada kemuliaan. Tidak malukah negara-negara umat ini membiarkan penjenayah Zionis dan sekutu antarabangsanya tanpa memandang kami dengan pandangan yang mampu mengesat air mata kami dan meringankan beban kami!

Adakah pertubuhan-pertubuhan umat ini, pasukan tenteranya, parti-partinya, badan-badannya dan tokoh-tokohnya tidak mahu marah kerana Allah dengan kemarahan sebenarnya lalu mereka keluar beramai-ramai sambil melaungkan ?

“Ya Allah, perkuatkan saudara-saudara kami yang sedang dipatah-patahkan, kasihanilah saudara2 kami yang lemah ditindas dan bantulah hamba-hambaMu yang beriman?”

Adakah kalian tidak memiliki kekuatan berdoa untuk kami ? Seketika nanti kalian akan mendengar mengenai peperangan besar ke atas kami dah ketika itu kami akan terus berdiri dengan tertulis di dahi kami bahawa kami akan mati berdiri dan berdepan dengan musuh, bukan mati membelakang (melarikan diri) dan akan mati bersama-sama kami, anak-anak kami, wanita-wanita, orang tua dan pemuda-pemuda!

Kami jadikan di kalangan mereka sebagai kayu bakaran buat umat yang diam dalam kebodohan ! Janganlah kalian menanti hingga kami menyerah atau mengangkat bendera putih kerana kami telah belajar bahawa kami tetap akan mati walaupun kami menyerah. Biarkan kami mati dalam kemuliaan sebagai muhahid.

Jika kalian mahu, marilah bersama-sama kami sedaya mungkin. Tugas membela kami terpikul dibahu kalian. Kalian juga sepatutnya menyaksikan kematian kami dan menghulurkan simpati. Sesungguhnya Allah akan menghukun sesiapa sahaja yang lalai daripada menunaikan kewajipan yang diamanahkan.

Dan kami berharap kepada kalian supaya jangan menjadi musuh yang menambah penderitaan kami. Demi Allah, jangan menjadi musuh kepada kami wahai pemimpin-pemimpin umat ini, wahai bangsa umat ini.

Ya Allah, kami mengadu kepadaMu,kami mengadu kepadaMu,kami mengadu kepadaMu .. lemahnya kami dan kurangnya helah kami. Demikianlah kami di hadapan manusia. Engkaulah Tuhan kepada orang-orang yang lemah. Dan engkaulah Tuhan kami. Kepada siapa engkau tinggalkan kami. Adakah kepada orang yang jauh yang akan menyerbu kami. Atau kepada musuh yang berkuasa ke atas kami ?

Ya Allah, kami mengadu kepadaMu darah-darah yang tertumpah, maruah yang ternoda, kehormatan yang diperkosa, kanak-kanak yang diyatimkan, wanita-wanita yang dijandakan, ibu-ibu yang kehilangan anak, rumah-rumah yang diruntuhkan, tanam-tanaman yang dirosakkan.

Ya Allah, kami mengadu kepadaMu berseleraknya kesatuan (umat) kami, berpecahnya perpaduan kami, b erbagai-bagainya jalan kami, terkebelakangnya kami.

Kami mengadu kepadaMu betapa lemahnya kaum kami, betapa tidak bermayanya umat di sekeliling kami dan betapa berjayanya musuh-musuh kami."

***
Yassin was killed in an Israeli attack on March 22, 2004, as he was leaving an early morning prayer session. His car was hit by three missiles from an Israeli helicopter gunship. The Sheikh was killed instantly, and up to seven bodyguards were also said to have been killed.

u need missiles to 'kill' him?? shame on u. shame shame shame!!

love, mama

bumi kita

2009-01-07T08:24:00.004+08:00

وَلَن تَرْضَى عَنكَ الْيَهُودُ وَلاَ النَّصَارَى حَتَّى تَتَّبِعَ مِلَّتَهُمْ قُلْ إِنَّ هُدَى اللّهِ هُوَ الْهُدَى وَلَئِنِ اتَّبَعْتَ أَهْوَاءهُم بَعْدَ الَّذِي جَاءكَ مِنَ الْعِلْمِ مَا لَكَ مِنَ اللّهِ مِن وَلِيٍّ وَلاَ نَصِيرٍ

dear sarah

the other day..u achieved another milestone of life. u can walk. many steps. even though still unsteady, but mama can say u are now start walking. mama laughed and papa was proud:))
then mama remembers our brothers and sisters in palestine. of what is happening to their children of ur age-or older? or mayb younger-deep inside, mama was touched. along their life, had they ever have the experience mama was experiencing? the joy of watching own child grow infront of one's eyes, in a calm and serene condition, in the silence of the environment except for cars/busses engine? had they everr? at least for the past 60 years?
and the children of ur age-or older/younger- they grew up with those missaile sounds, play between those rumbled house, always changing friends..and mayb family members since they always lost them..and they grew accustom to it

lately u started being active at night. u sleep late. filling the night time with play time. u played behind curtain, played "kuda-kuda", scribbled on mama's sudoku book, empty the cloth basket etc etc. suddenly there was in the news: live in gaza. here n there, burning and black smoke. we are happy and blessed. while our brothers and sisters in palestine, they are putting their life at stake. no place is safe. except for heaven. mama feels guilty. but u are too young to understand. and mama think; so are the children of ur age..at palestine.

these war between our brothers n sisters in palestine with the laknatullah israelis, they have been facing it for soo long. mayb too long. and only now that ppl start to realize what israel have been doing, whilst all along we have been trying to open ppl's eyes on whats happening in palestine, we are tryg to persuade ppl to boycott the US product. alas, most of them took it lightly. continuing own life as if the world-and all the ppl on it- is happy.

yesterday, mama accompany mama's friend to McD. it was very-very-very tempting for mama to buy vanilla shake (mama likes it very much thank you). very hard to resist. as if the whole situation is 'helping out': the queue is very short, there are still more time left for lunch hour.
mama, focusing hard on yusuf qardhawi - one dollar/one bullet whilist imagining the pix of our brothers n sisters in palestine; suffering, syahid, cryg etc etc.

"Each riyal, dirham …etc. used to buy their goods eventually becomes bullets to be fired at the hearts of brothers and children in Palestine.. To buy their goods is to support tyranny, oppression and aggression." -Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qaradawi

dang! mama's friend come out from the restorant. at that moment
friend: jadi tak nk beli?
mama: taklah..
we went out. fuuuhh. that was close. that was hard.

the battle had age ages. it is obvious that the world cannot control the laknatullah israelis, infact it is the other way around. mama is afraid, somehow, of mama's prediction: this is the third intifadhah, sooner or later, muslims all around the world will rise up and build a borders between israelis. it will be a III world war. everyone will be fighting. mama was veryy scared should that prediction come true. it will be the last battle..before the-day.

this world has aged. its time for it to 'go'. too many destruction has happened. too many mistakes by humans, too many 'rulers' too many of everything had and has never benefits.

the obvious of this war is humanitarian. but the underlying reason is always as told in quran. its always between the jews and muslims.

2:120 Never will the Jews or the Christians be satisfied with thee unless thou follow their form of religion. Say: "The Guidance of Allah,-that is the (only) Guidance." Wert thou to follow their desires after the knowledge which hath reached thee, then wouldst thou find neither Protector nor helper against Allah.

dearest sarah,

our hearts cries for gaza, our hearts has always cries with them. our heart cries for our brothers and sisters in palestine. our dua are always to them. remember them in each and every of ur prayer. thats the least-but the biggest and most powerfull-help we can do.

as per told by one of palestinan sister; they are always hoping for at least our doa. they even assumed we pray for them. and mama really believe in that. believe in Allah's help.

mama went to tafsir class by dr fatma just now. we were doing surah al-insaan. and was thinking then; maybe the syuhadaa' were better off now in heaven, rather than to live their life right now

its a sad story; its always a sad story for we have to pay to be happy. maybe thats is the price our brothers and sisters are paying, to be happy in the afterworld. reflecting back to us: how much are we willing to pay for our happiness later?

mama hopes u can grow up and read this-although we can never-never be sure.

Allahhummansurilmuslimin fi falasteen

love, mom

bee

2009-01-05T17:32:00.002+08:00

dear sarah

sarahhhh mama is very-very busy. today mama didnt eat anything since morning except morning coffee at home. mama is very hungry and will grab some choc-donut on the way back.

tonight mama will stay up and use papa's laptop to continue working. hu hu hu.

its either time management or heavy workload :P

dont be like mama ok ;)

btw yesterday ... ahh mama will continue tomorrow -if the time/internetconnection permits us

luv, mom

5pix x 1000 = 5000 eq words

2009-01-02T09:34:00.007+08:00

dear sarah

oh well..pakngah+makngah's wedding run as smooth as smoothie. heh. herewith, mama attached the pix. for this post- we will use the phase of "pix is worth 1000 words" therefore, more pix, more words equivalent. hoho

here are the bride n groom on the nikah day. exclusive. close friends and relatives only :P

this is on the bride's reception. well well...surprisingly, there was an empty seat at the pengantin's table hence, require us to fill it up. notice mama put "us". that means, mama brings u along on the pengantin's table for makan beradab(!). omg2. sticky kan. mama kaver abes duk depan tuh, tp sarah selambe abes luek2 mknan pulakk (!?).

ok this is on our side. pengantin wears silver. us, we wear royal blue. hectic day. very tiring. very much happening and all ends well ;)

q: guess whos hiding behind the fresh flowers?

a: sarah! (shy-shy kitten) on the nikah day.

u are so tired that u made a lot of noise during nikah time. mama gotta usher u out of the mosque, nx tactic: gv all that u want in order to keep u quiet to listen to pakngah akad. ish2..

below is pix of the day~

time: abt 3-4pm

venue: surau vip

with: mama

dress: pink because no blue gown

the pengantin got a total of 3(ke 4?) microwave-oven. so they gv us one. he he. very generous. very nice. mama laike!

p/s: matila pasni xde alasan x masak

god bless both bride n groom~

love, mama

head first

2008-12-31T12:32:00.002+08:00

dear sarah

the other night; mama and papa were praying isya. we were doing the last rakaat. u were also praying beside papa. then papa sujud...then mama sujud...then..
baaam! u went face first to the floor...and..uuuwaaaaa.. menangis x ingt. luckily we were on the last rakaat.
after prayer we rush to aid u. u were bleeding! omg! (lagila melalak mama dia)
it happens very fast

this is what mama thinks:
u wanted to pray too(!). usually u will sujud very gracefully and gently. mama thinks this time mayb u wanted to imitate papa verymuch that u went head first to the floor-with the intention to sujud. hu hu

very well done my dear. good intention. but not quite properly done. well..mama was proud (and scared) :D

love, momma

sleep pattern

2008-12-24T12:27:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

the other night, is the first time that u slept very-well. i.e. u didnt wake up for milk except once. and for the past 1 year, mama got a very good night sleep. well done :P

the other night, u slept very late. around 10-11 oso. u disturb mama n papa. mama was very-very sleepy

the other night, u have stomach ache. u vomit 4 times. mama changed ur cloth 4 times that night. and twice for bedsheet. hu hu

and last night, we have satay for our dinner. after dinner, mama had stomach ache that mama has to bend over for a long time before eating some medicine (mama found in the kitchen). at 4am, u woke up and wake mama up (as usual). but u didnt sleep back. then at 6am, u vomit. and mama changed ur cloth and our bedsheet. then u sleep peacefully. we suspected that it has something to do with the satay. surprisingly, papa didnt have any stomach-ache at all. wch is rare because papa's stomach is the most sensitive among us all. hu hu

mama was suppose to be on holiday today. but mama needs to come to the ofc due to unfinished/urgent work that needs to be done. initially, mama plan to come to ofc early in the morning, but didnt have the heart to wake u up after seeing u sleep after a tiring night.

lurve, momma

of another thousands things more

2008-12-17T13:22:00.013+08:00

dear sarah

this is u. in various activity (or shld mama say..pose: :P)

"boxing"
piano-ing

a ride
another ride= nak dua-dua reading
directing :P
drivinganother drive Mengemudi+Directing

"horse riding"

lepaking

contorlling (d tv)

and finally...

berehat

lately, mama likes to post pix. saje. for enjoyment in the old days. u too will enjoy it. when u get older. and u can show it off to ur friends too. u can tell them "see, my momma post lotsalotsa my pix in the internet. ur mom did that?" :P. *kidding*

lurve, momma

mating season

2008-12-15T13:06:00.009+08:00

dear sarah

beginning of december is a beginning of free-lunch(s) month

to date: our december-weekends are fully booked.

soo many of mama's clans are getting married. its what they called...mating season(?). lets list down the invitations that we got so far

6/12:

aunty Aween's+uncle Usayd's - done

aunty Nik's+uncle Baib's -done

aunty Mas' sister - decline. x smpat!

uncle Hezri's+aunty (?) - decline. x smpat!

13/12:

aunt Fadhilah's 'makan-makan' -done

aunty Linda+uncle Malan -we decline. x smpat!

CLIP Club family day - mama decline. x smpat!

14/12:

aunty Manihah+uncle (?) -done

aunty Masyitah+uncle 'Ashim -done

uncle Baib+aunty Nik -done

19/12

ur pakngah's nikah day-mama on leave

20/12

wed reception on the bride's side

invitation to mama's friend's daughter bday party

25/12

our side for wed reception

27/12

karnival kebudayaan bla..bla..

28/12

karnival kebudayaan bla..bla..

aunt ira's ... (ops)

29/12

papa's friend's wedg

there goes our 2008 dec-weekends/public hols~

below is the pic of all of us at aunt aween's wedding. where's d bride&groom? well..amazingly, mama saw mama's little bride in a pink dress with hair clip as a crown :))

so this month, we will all be stuffing our tummy with nasi minyak-but actually, given option, mama took white rice. one, for u. two, mama wants to reduce the oily-food intake.

reflecting all these kenduri, mama hopes for Allah to match u with a guy whose heart full of iman, whose thought are non other than dakwah-based, who always remember Allah and who, by the look of him will make u increase ur iman.

mama hopes he will treat u kind, treat u as how we (mama n papa) treats u, teach u the meaning of life, brings u closer to Allah, take full responsibility of his.

my dearest, should the lucky men whom have most of stated above is not at par with u in luxury, or far from ur friends' expectation by looks, if he asks for ur hands...that should be the best request that u should not disregard :)

always pray for the best. judge based on their iman first, other than anything else. finally, put ur trust in Allah for its He who knows best.

we will talk more abt silang jantina when u get bigger. *wink*

luv, mama

answer

2008-12-11T11:57:00.004+08:00

dear sarah

this post is the answer for all 'riddles' :)

let us zoom a bit on the pic in the prev post....

tadaaa!!

kih kih kih. what r u doing in that box? who put u in that box? whose box is that? most important..the background. where are u?

kih kih kih. mama loike! crdts to pakK

next 'riddles'

these 2 are sarah (u were named after her) and rabiah and this is hanisah :)

u will meet them insya Allah

waah..mama didnt go out for lunch (!) and shopping. and its friday. mama was thinking of buying u new baju ss/ls etc. but since papa promised to bring us to alamanda..hmm..might as well mama savour the lunch hour to surf the internet and writes this letter to u.

luv, mama

hide-n-seek

2008-12-09T12:31:00.005+08:00

dear sarah

lets see the pic below. find mama something. u'll know it when u see it (tiru ayat amazing race). others? he he he

mama will post the ans tomorrow ok ;)

luv, mama

eiduladha

2008-12-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya aidiladha to all

-papa,mama n sarah

mama's friend

2008-12-04T10:56:00.006+08:00

dear sarah

this is another of mama's precious friends-whose steps u can follow

we know each other in high school. but we know more abt each other in the higher secondary school. she is very-very good in her studies. excellento~! (be like her ok). until now. she have the kindest of heart and the most innocent. whenever i come to her house, its like my own house i.e. i hv no problem going straight to her kitchen, eat the foods, greets her sister etc etc. she was there the hard and easy times. she is always, always there. even if we lost contact for sometime, its just a phone call away and dang~! we were ourselves again as if there never was a distance :). she has the best of brain and talented for cooking/baking. when u meet her, u will like her instantly. well we did come to her house when u were small and she baked us an apple pie!. she holds u while mama eats. haha. this dear friend of mine, u my dear will definately be fond of her, as mama does.

luv, mama

moon smiles at us

2008-12-02T12:56:00.004+08:00

dear sarah

look! the moon smiles at us :)
we didnt get a chance to see this yesterday night. we were so busy watching amazing race. so mama got this pic from a friend and post it here. this event happens once in 24 years-mama's age. so u will probably see this when u are 25 yr old and mama at 48 yrs old.
insya allah

luv, mama

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

2008-12-02T11:24:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

there is this friend of mama. mama didnt know her from childhood. mama only were given a chance to know her when mama was big. then mama was granted with even bigger chance to get close to her. from then, we were close. but..she was close to just anybody. she was very nice. very dedicated, loving and she can cook! (at young age-wch is a rare fact to mama's talent). she was also doing very well in her studies. even though she didnt make it to overseas, but she did just as well in local. she is dedicated to islam as much as to her everything else. but the most interesting part of her is that..everybody likes her. there is not one single person-as far as mama is concern-that doesnt like her. and very seldom ppl badmouth her. ppl do get jelous of her, but not to the extend to hate her for it. mama will make sure very well that u meet her one day when u are big

there is this friend of mama. mama knows her since child. to mama at that time (and until now), she is still the best friend taht no other can beat. she is the most funny, the coolest and the most fun! mama can summarise her as 'best'. a very good listener she is. she has a big ears(wch means she listens!) and bigg heart. she blends in well with everybody. there was one time when mama was small, ur grandma prohibited us to eat maggie(mama will do so to u! >:)). so everytime we get our hands on maggie, we eat like crazy. so, regarding this friend of mama, we usually hang out at her house after school. because no one was there. there, it was most interesting when we together got a chance to cook the maggie ourself and eat all we can. then we will play for sometime b4 we both fell asleep. sometimes we bring back sweets/junkies to eat. ooohhh...that is the best moment :). u will also met this friend of mama.

so there, 2 of mama's most precious..they showed good example that u can follow. most time, be mama's mirror to reflect and the best of friends. u know..friendship never dies. that is true..for true friends. and the truest friends is the one that always brings u closer to Allah and reminds u when u r wrong. i.e. the one that grows from the same aqidah, will be tied together in iman and hopefully, will met again in jannah

mama can just cite the example of sahabiah. there are many3 of them that u can refer to and follow the best of examples that they showed. but this is a real-life experience that mama wants to share. he he he

mama will publish their name in nx-nx post okie

luv, mama

snippet

2008-12-01T12:01:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

on saturday, believe it or not, we went shopping at the gardens from morning to night. we were spent by the time we got home.
mama thinks the gardens shld built one surau so that we dont hv to go to midvaley everytime we want to pray.

well..our big catch are:
papa: 2 dockers, 2 daniel hetcher
mama: 1 shoes-murah saje; sb ngade2
sarah: 1 shoes-because u lost one shoe at tesco
then, mama rembat 1 dvd player to play ur dvds/cds (now mama will need to spend summore on ur cds/dvds-haih mama always have reasons to spend mama's money on u. hu hu hu

so, if we pole the result, we can see that papa is the champion with the most things (and expensive) buys. hiks

as to maintain papa to be the champion, we propose satay kajang to be our dinner for yesterday. he he he

mama needs to rush home today- so mama cannot write much
oh btw, we also went to see ur pakteh yesterday. pakteh has got chicken pox. so u cant play with him. u only play with ur maksu and maklang. maklang wants mama to upload ur pix with her here. but the pix is blur/gelap. so...we'll take another pix. we took some of ur maklang's dadih home. nyum2 :)

luv, mama

animal planet

2008-11-28T11:00:00.006+08:00

dear sarah

yesterday we watched animal planet together. mama only watch the show when the animals are wild animals. mama pull u onto mama's lap. u were excited with the snakes and all that..but...

hihi..last2 of that whole hour, mama nampak kuning je

u were so excited that u wanted to have a closer look at the snakes. u even put up ur hands as to 'take' the ball inthe tv.. hu hu hu

thank god its friday-we can go shopping tomorrow

papa dah overexcited tuh!

luv, mama

syukur

2008-11-27T12:54:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

this morning, while sending u to nursery, we drive passed one motorcycle. there were 3 ppl riding on the motorcycle. i guess 1 is the father and 2 sons. they are indians. mama look at them from the window, one of the boys returns mama's look. we held the gaze for a few seconds.

and that few seconds gv a lasting impression to mama's heart till now. and since u were asleep on mama's lap this morning, mama wants to extend the impression to u too...when u are big..and no longer sleeps on mama's lap in the car.

dear sarah, they are riding on one motorcycle. mama was thinking; its not safe to practice as such. also, what if they are being caught by the authority? how it is when the day rains?

mama believed the father didnot intentionaly want to practice that kind of transportation. but mayb they cant afford to have a car. the one that we usually take for granted.

when u are big, when u are rich, u will notice that the topic of the rich is not the type of transportation; but types of car u owned, and/or how many do u have. and still, they will compete and keep on wanting more.

when u are big, when u are rich, when u have a car-regardless the model, keep looking out of the window. see those that rides on the motorcycle. u will see many cycles with their little ones in the middle. when it rains, u turn off the aircond inside ur car because u are cold; while the motorcyclist, they are cold from the rain. u can safely go inside the house while having a little to worry about ur slightly-wet cloth. remember, those motorcyclist are drenched in the rain, and they have to stop long under the bridges waiting for the rain to slow down before picking up the journey where they left it.

always remember to be thankful at all times. whenever u think u r unlucky, keep in mind that u r luckier in many ways compared to many ppl. remember mama teach u abt redha? ;)

whenever u feel not enough, remember that u got a food to eat, cloth to wear and a home to shelter. many ppl got none of those.

keep it close to heart that we need to always be thankful to the provider i.e. Allah. whatever happens to u, be thankful. in that way, ur rizq will double fold. if that happens, double-triple the syukr.

be a thankful 'abd. afterall, arent we just the servant?

p/s: the name syukra was one of the names that mama wants to gv u because mama likes the meaning. syukra means those that are always thankful hence this blog was named after

mama stil remember the look in one of the boys eyes- so longing to be comfy in the car

luv, mama

vocab

2008-11-26T13:12:00.002+08:00

dear sarah

as of today, ur vocab has increased. u r quick in imitating. even though u didnt pronounce the full word i.e.

terima kasih=ceihh
makan=mammam
mama=mama
papa=papa
nak=nak
air=eir
meow=nyiau
monyang=nyaa
nasi=sii
tiqah=tittah
kakak= tattak
sarah=sayah
nina=nina
car=car
angin=inn
auumm=auumm

ooh and so much more~

it is fun to hear u say all those words and to teach u new words.

so..mama needs to teach u quran then. he he. so ambitious la ur mama :P
mama needs to always do good because u follow so quickly without us realizing it.

mama is having a headache due to so many work.

luv, mama

another milestone

2008-11-24T12:57:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

yesterday we arrived home from swiss garden, damai laut at 7+pm

yesterday we all were very tired-i suppose u feel tired too. we were not at home for 2 weeks in a row. papa was very tired. he was the full time driver, wch means we are his full time passenger

yesterday u were exactly 1 year and 4 months old.

and yesterday, is ur another achievement! you can stand on ur feet without holding anything. u can even clap ur hands while doing it..before u 'terduduk kebelakang' ;)

so yesterday, u reached another milestone of life. mama was very proud of u! mama laughed when u clap ur hands while standing, and u did it again because mama likes it. u tried very hard and dont give up.

although at ur age, most kids have already run, but mama dont mind. mama wants u to grow up at ur own pace. enjoying every stage of life cycle. mama will encourage and guide u along the way. mama wants u to be able to think and use ur brains as much as u can, creatively.

mama hopes u will tie ur heart to Allah, exploit ur mind and body to work for islam, so to say..u willingly exchange this world for the next world.

u will need to enjoy much while u are still a child, because when u grow up, there wont be time for fun. your rest will only be in paradise. u wont find peace until islam conquers the world.

mama wont be able to keep u off this life's cruelty. but mama will try my best to instil the value of redha in u. mama will try to always remind u of this fact: everything is good; its only our perception that usually determines the good and bad, because everything comes from Allah. there is never a single thing that Allah gives us that is bad for us. u need to know how to 'see' beyond things; using ur heart. thats why a mukmin's heart is always at peace. knowing what befalls him is always the best for him ;)

till we met in the next letter - mama wants to go to parkson to check on papa's baju. eventho mama is very-very sleepy+tired+and wantstosleep right now

luv, mama

perasan

2008-11-21T10:50:00.003+08:00

dear sarah

do you know that there are almost never a night that u dont sleep with mama? except one night when mama was hospitalized.

so its 99.79% of nights that u sleep with mama and 0.2% nights that u dont sleep with mama.

do u know that mama actually take a few minutes of breaks-from loads of works- to calculate the total of days to get that percentage?

he he he.

ur mom is sure cool kan? be proud. he he he!!

p/s: when u are old enough to understand, the kind-of-mama-syok-sendiri shld b different kinds i.e. mama perasan muda ke, perasan slim ke :P

love, mama

cable car

2008-11-20T13:23:00.009+08:00

dear sarah

ok lets continue with our trip to langkawi, else, mama's afraid mama wont hv time to write it. well, we are on the move again this weekend. this time..to swiss garden, damai laut ;)

we went to cable car. and u know, the queue is very long. the ticket counter ppl estimate it to be about 40 mins of queueing (spell?). thank god the weather is windy and cool. so u are not restless and sweaty.

u did very well on the cable car. we share the cable car with 2 arabs who were on their honeymoon. they are friendly. mama wont write so much in this entry. mama will just put up our pic.

this is our cable car tickets

this the three of us :). thats actually our image on the dark glass window
u know who's this. u are actually running away from the camera. so i had to take ur pic sideways. lately, u dont like me to take ur pic. not like when u were baby. he he

look! u are soo cool inside the cable car. and tadaa! we are here. although this is not at the top, well..its more than halfway through

ur pix with papa. mama was so bz taking pix that mama forgot mama wasnt in the pix. hu hu hu.

this is u..playing. playing. playing.

notice u are eating only the cones! no ice cream!. mama eat all ur ice cream and leave u with the cone only. hehe! u cant eat the ice cream. its cold~

then nx pic, the topi was a little bigger that ur head, so it falls down. mama took that chance to snap ur pic because if not, ur pic will always be sideways. oh eventhough mama only got half of ur face. huhu. but mama thinks its cute :D

ok mama's got to stop here. lunch hour is over. mama didnt have lunch today.

(as per aunt filzah's suggestion:)

love, mama

lessons

2008-11-19T16:22:00.002+08:00

dear sarah,

mama was about to continue with our trip to langkawi when mama stops writing to go to Dr Fatma's class.

this is what mama learns:
"[62:4] Such is GOD's grace that He bestows upon whomever He wills. GOD is Possessor of Infinite Grace.
[62:5] The example of those who were given the Torah, then failed to uphold it, is like the donkey carrying great works of literature. Miserable indeed is the example of people who rejected GOD's revelations. GOD does not guide the wicked people."

my dearest,
from 62:4, dont compare urself with others i.e. do not be jealous of what others have that u dont. its their rizq. u have urs and ur time will come

when u grow big, mama hope u will read quran everyday. read it at the morning to start the day, read it at night to close the day, and read it between the working hour - if u can - to keep quran close to heart. but on top of that, atend to the meanings of the whole quran. it doesnt matter if u r slow in doing it, an ayat a day is good enough :). dont be like the comparison in 62:5. we dont want to be like the yahudi-who were given the Torah.

remember this: mati adalah kerehatan kepada mukmin
whilst u r stil alive, u need to strive ur best to get Allah's 'attention'. by attention, mama means rewards, love and blessings. currently, mama is also tryg to do the same. and mama wants u to do it too. we'll do it together-when u understand enuff

xoxo

langkawi

2008-11-18T12:26:00.004+08:00

dear sarah,

this is about our trip to langkawi. your and papa's first time in langkawi. mama? well..i've been there a few time. but i might as well enjoy it as it were our first time together ;)

our flight was scheduled to fly off at 1845. so mama went back home early. syhhh. mama wasnt suppose to sneak off from ofc. anyway, we rushed to the airport- mama didnt even have time to change ur nappy- just to find that our flight was delayed to 2020(!?). fuuu

so mama changed ur nappy, changed u to long-sleeve shirt. then u start "mammam..mammam". that means u are hungry and wanted to eat. lately, u are able to communicate ur needs very well!. so papa went to buy u some munchys-biscuits. the biscuits were choc base. and to cut the story short, u spilled the choc all over ur shirt..aaaa. then mama went to change u to ur second suit for the night.

mama was quite worried to get u on the plane since this is the first time u 'fly'. one of mama's coleague told mama that when flying with children, make sure they are sucking something, otherwise they will cry while the pressure changed and block their ears. he he.

but u did great! u didnt cry. infact, u "cak cak" ppl around. hu hu. mama notice that all babies are stuffed with pacifier- ok so mayb they fly often-

at langkawi, our room is big. well, bigger than our expectation. and has a very nice toilet. big bathtub! *blinkblink*

this is our pic in the surau where mama just changed u to ur 2nd baju for the night. see, mama is still wearing ofc atire.

here we are: at about 9-10 pm oso..at the langkawi airport. while papa wait for the luggage this is u, the next day. u have to wear topi tuhh..because its hot. ok thats not mama who holds u. you are soo friendly to kakak kedai. we were at beras terbakar. but actually, the signage is wayy bigger than the thing itself. and there are many shops before we reached beras terbakar. the shops, sells exactly the same thing. mama thought they have a very high competition. but we didnt buy anything except a few keychains at the shop below. that makcik below is so friendly with you. and so were u with her. hahha! well, i bought keychains from her not out of guilt, but yeah, there are many choice that suits mama's taste here. kebetulann. hehe
oklah mama gotta stop here. mama's going to lunch with aunt alak. hehe. will continue in the next letter aite~

xoxo

change

2008-11-17T16:31:00.003+08:00

as per rabi says: asik tukar rumah

i now going to change the style of writing..to..hmm..from mama to sarah.. he he he

gediknyela bagai..abaikan saja..haha

neway, i'm thinking of...as if sarah was reading this..when i was gone

credit to: k.Hanis..he he

my donut

2008-11-14T08:43:00.003+08:00

i lost my mood not only for writing, but also for eating. so i didnt have lunch. i stayed stunned at my workplace until k.hanis asks me to go to watson w her. THEN only we stop by at isetan sunmoulin and i bought a donut and sandwiches.

at about 4++ i started eating my 'lunch' wch comprise of 4 sanwiches and 1 donut. after filling myself with 3/4 sandiwiches (sebab 1 dh bg alak pulak), i'm full. i'm not that hungry anyway. not in the mood for eating :P. so i keep my doughnut in my drawer for bfast tomorrow.

this morning, i ate the doughnut. it is suppose to be soo soft, so fluffy, alas, it was 'hard' anythg but how it was suppose to be. and i am anything but to indulge on eating the donut as i used to feel everytime. and thats just....over night?

so i'm thinking, if the donut...overnight..can turn to 'hard' donut...what will happen if i were to leave the donut for 2 days? 3 days? 1 week? how hard can it be?

what will happen if we leave our heart; unattended for 2 days? 3 days? 1 week? 1 months?

how hard is the the heart then?

the faster you take action, the less effort is required to soften the heart back.

hey i'm time-pressured, and peer-pressured. my peers are always peeping at my monitor. i cant think clearly. so i guess my wording is..i dont know. haha

oh...i'm talkg half day today (erk). well...we are going to take a little vacation to langkawi. he he he..

so this is the first time sarah -and her father- is going to langkawi. me? *yawn* acah je. i'm as excited as them. till then..~~

off to langkawi~~~~~~~~

p/s: see the dots? that wht happen when i'm time-pressured. i dnt hv time to correct them..so be it

blank

2008-11-13T12:20:00.002+08:00

i lost my mood of writing the minute i speak with HR.

i like to move it move it

2008-11-12T09:07:00.003+08:00

currently, i was offered non-tch position in the comp. so after doing a lot of weighing and discussion and istikharah segala bagai, i planned to switch to tech line.

so, what they (refer: my current bos) did was doing everything they cld to prevent me from going. offering their 'opinion'; they downgrade me, critisize my appearance. using all means to 'attack' me from every angle. be it family factor, competition, sexism, religion etc. darn!

but you know, its not that i dont defend myself. yeah basically i just smiled and laughed. he he. as a matter of fact, i would verymuch like to counter back all the 'attacks'. but yeah, that will prolong me with them - wch i as much like to avoid- and also...oh welll...they are the boss kan..so..whtever i'm saying..doesnt really applied since the rule of 'bos is always right' pertain.

but somehow, the effect of all those is but differ me from my decision. he he. of course, me, being indecisive always did shatter a bit. but...hmm..it makes me more challenged and angry then wht it is suppose to make me feel.

so i guess...thats a wrong move. my husband told me; that kind of behaviour was to be expected since bosses dont really favor those that wants to move out of the dept. ok so fine.

hi hi..i'm so gonna go outta here. they are good. its just that i hv my own plans-wch i hope correspond with God's- ; that mayb dont inline with theirs. oh but anyway, they are not THAT sincere. its just kpi that matters. so i'm gonan protect mine (ye kerrr???)

secret recipe

2008-11-11T14:30:00.007+08:00

yeah..the above is for today. i repeat TODAY. read: if you just know abt it by reading this post, then you are in the majority - who didnt get the cake

hmm..i so wanted the cake. but the queue is omg! soo long. the outlet didnt include the towers. so i need to get somebody to buy it for me from the nearest outlet. it so happen that my friends ofc was nearest to alamanda. she, being the 'scape goat' to all of us went to alamanda at 1030. at 1030. the queue was as long as to block the entrance of carrefour. darn! she fled when she saw the queue.

ok fine. so i planned plan B. wch is to go to sogo. but that means...we hv to go out of ofc there and then wch, we cant. the bos would be suspicious. too many of her staff wld b mia. darn. there goes all my cakessss :(

at night, my friend called again. she is in alamanda. again. she told me that there are still cakes left. so i was like..OMG!! go and BUY it...take the coupon~!!! jumping with joy-silently because my daughter was abt to sleep- then she queued. again. then she called me. again. and told me...hey there are not much left. the most is the plain cheese cake, wch i requested choc indulgence. and there warent any coupons left. ok soooo finee!

i told her..and myself..to forget it!

the cake is not for us. after so many attempts, xde rezeki la tuhhh...

lessons:

o yeah, when it is not meant to be, then its not meant to be.

free things arent easy.

oh wel, there arent free things in this world -xcept to fart and dream- u just gotta sweat to have things run ur way.

of yesterday

2008-11-11T10:05:00.002+08:00

as a continuation from yesterday:
heh, i rushed down just to find the husband...at parkson..leisurely walking and window shopping. cis cos
yesterday night, i had a blast. o well, thats exaggerating. neway, these few days, i had a body-ache. and i think i'm due to some body massage. so i called a few spa-s to book an appointment. but theyre fully booked (so i guess everyone is not that healthy anymore or everyone is starting to appriciate their bodies). so i called this lady-urut, where she comes last night. aahhhh...sodap. eventho she talks non stop, so were her hands..so i guess, its ok.

this morning, my back was starting to get blueblack. mebi from last night's urut session. darn. i need to sit up straight. the makcik urut says my back bone will bend if i dont. ok so if u find me walking, with extra confident steps, that means..i'm practicing to walk with straight backbone. he he

yesterday also, my PIL went to hajj. i didnt take leave since my AL was 4 days left. my hband took the responsbility (its his anyway) of sending them and making sure that 'transition' process went smoothly.

sarah didnt go to nursery yesterday. i called home..and heard her saying "mamma..mamma" oohhh terasa bagai mau pulang. hihi

gut

2008-11-10T16:33:00.002+08:00

i used to think my life was constantly on the dark side. i know u will say, oh the grass is always greener on the other side. yes. thats one. but mine, i used to have many little-big obstacle that prevent me from having a delicious time like my friends (oh yeah now u see who my comparison are). i wouldnt state one by one the so-called-obstacles as now i see it very small :P.

as of now, i feel that life has slow down. the path is less sticky and more lively. everything is ..yeah u can say..smooth. of wch near as exact as i wanted it to be, but, surprisingly, i feel something amis. its just...so perfect that it is frightening

then i look from another of many of my pov. i see that the obstacles are getting less and lesser. i took that as a sign of getting my luck. but now, as it was barely-there, i'm starting to worry. i compare my life with those palestinan (pardon yar) and those that rocks in the same boat, i see my life as beautiful as in fairy tales. darn, that creeps me up.

comparing both feelings, i think something is wrong somewhere. life is getting by so good that it scares my nerves off. my instincts ticks and tells me that something needs to be done.

its this 5 b4 5 that bothers me:
"healthy b4 u are sick
rich b4 u r poor
young b4 u age
free b4 u r busy
live b4 u r dead"
-alHadith

while my life is mostly falls on the lefthand side, i need to take full advantage of it..before it balanced and falls to the other side of the scale.

another thing that trouble my gut is that "the more god loves you, the more he tested you, until you are being tested, then He will call u to him"
aiyoh. i really believe that. the thing is..am i in that category?

guess i need to pen off now. my husband is waiting for me in the lobby-of tower 1. he he he
tonite, i'm gonna hv a blast. berurut2an for the whole body. cool2..
i'll continue tomorrow~

ai ai ai

2008-11-10T12:15:00.002+08:00

hi ok so i need to be patient
i believe patience is the key to success. and i believe i am right. of course its always easier said than done.
o yeah i created this particularblog, to replace my blog wch hosted at wordpress-wch i likeee very muchh- for the sake of busines needs. hmm you just cant have everything, let alone the best of it.

curently i am tryg to arange my life. rearrange. and see wch design fitted best. o yeah, as time goes by, i need to constantly arrange and re-arrange because the mould would change.

i dont havemuch idea right now due to heavy workload wch i would verymuch love to get rid of. because of that, i cant think much except for and about myself and family. my mood is flactuating that sometimes i get very nasty and selfish. i am indeed very 'rough' when i'm travelling to work i.e. by lrt. i do get jealous sometimes with ppl, but i seldom convert the thought to action, and i despise those who did - by means of anything. i have friends, both; of goodones and the evils.

last week, after attending tafseer by dr fatma, this is what i learnt: redha. how to measure ur iman. the value of akhlak in islam. etc. and...the thoughts is what drives the talks. and the talks drives the action - or..something like that. i seldom convert my thoughts into action. my bad thoughts i mean.

by bad, i mean real bad. i always imagine beeing very mean. or killing. haha. i just hope i wouldnt carry the thought out.

ok i think, enough of i i i already.
well this is just an opening entry. enough of addressing myself..haha